Once upon a time, I was the happiest person on earth
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only me in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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Weihan aka BBR;SGPS; MSHS; NYJC(0713); NYKRT; Manchester United Football Club; Ruud van Nistelrooy

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Saturday, September 30, 2006
8:03 PM

heh; juz read finished a book ron recommended me and its really meaningful to read... its titled 'tuesdays with morris' and its a real life account of the author's life with a friend which is also a teacher... this books is like teaching us the values of lives and how we view it from different angles... mayb i could use some of the values and apply it to my own life and i wouldn't suffer so much...haiz... how i wished i was as smart as the professor; who was so optimistic even when his death is nearing...


guessed its all finished this thursday; if i was given a choice; i wouldn't want to finish it, i wanna to continue it, but i noe it cant b continued... all this is just bullshit.... oh well... going jc to find a new 1...wish me luck

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
9:46 PM

Prelim 1
el- 55
chinese-64
e math-55
amaths-56
chem-67.5
phy-62.5
humans-66

Prelim 2
el-59(improved)
chinese-64.3(same)
emaths-76.25(improved)
amaths-55.4(same)
chem-68(same)
phy-72(improved)
humans-63(deproved)

overall
el-58.4(5)
humans-63.5(4)
phy-71(2)
chem-68(3)
e maths-73.1(2)
amaths-55.4(5)
chinese-64(4)



Total L1R5=5+4+2+2+3+4=20?!


sianzzz; srjc's my onli choice without moderation; wif moderation den; cj? haiz... my results like shit man!

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Tuesday, September 26, 2006
10:44 AM

yea man! ytd was real fun... went to sentosa wif aloy; leh; kl; jh; ron; fats; vidic; willis. last time i went sentosa; fantasy island was still there; so its been a long time since i've been there; and i've seen lots of changes dere.

woke up at 7 plus to see it was raining; den went meet they all at dhoby for a "full-scale" discussion which lasted less than a minute den we went harbourfront to eat. after eating, den SENTOSA! decided to take bus dere and we were arguing at the entrance dere coz vidic wanna walk and fats wanna take bus. but i wanna take bus also; muscles aching like siao coz of sat lar... long time no play soccer den suddenly play so much; den ache so much; so walking will make my legs worse; so in the end we took bus and its really quite far... went to cable car tower to check out the prices 1st and found it was too ex for the return journey. saw the sky tower(or wadever) and its quite a waste of money. den we went on the dragon trail walk; lol; took some fotos indere and also gt some mosquito bites and ant bites coz i was wearing slippers. den; SILOSO beach. hahaz... leh wasted money buying a red ball... but we still paid him 50 cents each; lol... played a short game of volleyball den SOCCER! hahaz... wanted to use that red ball; but it was so light so we decided to use the volleyball. playing soccer on sand was veh different from street soccer. the ball will definitely not go in a straight line 1. and the stupid sun is damn hot; feel so exhausted after a while.

went walking around siloso beach after playing; den leh gave the red ball to a few small kids and the kids kicked the ball into the sea?! lol, thats really a real waste of 5 bucks. went to one of the offshore islands thru a bridge and less than a min we came back liao; gt nth dere... but dere was a lot of gals in bikini;WOO! hahaz; lucky nvr nosebleed sia...rested a while at a pavillion den walked over to the beach station to meet willis. bought some drinks at 7-11 den discussed where to eat lunch... stupid fats was making so much noise(more abt him later on) den decided to go over to koufu to have lunch; took the beach tram and we missed our stop; lol; so we caused alot of ppl to take the nxt tram coz the current tram was full... hahaz. and the food at koufu was damn freaking expensive lar. damit! den went palawan beach and went to dunno wat most southeast corner of asia island and took a few pics... and ron wasted money in using the bino juz to see gals swimming in the sea; hahaz... icant even c properly lar.. so blur 1..

played 2 games of soccer at palawan beach but the second game we anyhow play 1; wasn't even like a real soccer game; kept laughing like siao... went 7-11 in between games and fats was DAMN NOISY! after that, i went change clothes and went to 7-11... a real funny thing happened at the counter... leh and fats were queueing infront of me and they were like competing; wanted to buy their drinks 1st... so they put their bottles at the same level and the counter lady took leh bottles 1st, hahaz.. fats was like ... laugh until siao lar... den we wanted to go to the luge dere and the stupid tram auntie NEARLY tricked us into takin the wrong tram; lol...den went over to the beach station and walked over to the skyride area there. took the same lift wif willis and vidic; was suppose to sit in the CENTER to prevent a fight but i was pushed to the side; lol. i was still wearing slippers during the ride and IF MY SLIPPERS WERE TO DROP; I'M SCREWED! took a foto while on the ride and leh kept closing his eyes each time i turned behind; guess he's the one who's scared la... and then; i realised that in front of us where jh; ron and fats were sitting on 1 chair, the whole chair was tilted; can u imagine 3 OBESE people sitting on consecutive seats; leaving the last seat empty...hahaz... the whole like dam dangerous liddat lo... and during the ride; iscreamed and screamed and towards the end of the ride; i shooked the whole chair; hahaz... the LUGE nxt, whee so fun man! the luge ride really made my day la... at 1st; kl was leading and suddenly; voom, jh; ron leh and the rest were in front of me??????!!!! wah lao eh den i sped up and towards the end, dunno y fats slowed down; he siaosiao 1 and i oso crashed into leh luge at the end of the ride... hahaz... den went to underwater world where fats made lots of noise AGAIN.. damn him...den took bus to the old ferry terminal and took a few pics and finally back to mainland singapore; where it was abt 7 plus liao... went to eat at the harbourfront mall and watched the result show at dere; so hady won ah, but idun watch sg idol so i dunno much abt it... went mac to chat and RONSON, YOU DESTROYED MY FONE DERE! NOW MY FONE SO UGLY LIAO. hahaz... nt really lar, its juz tat the joystick button come out...zzz.. den fats was like mad lar... sing halfway den start laughing like mad. den leh was dere rapping jay chou and lee hom songs den went home; bathe and straight away slept... too tired le

now, this post is abt TAN HAO FENG AKA FATS! damn u man fats the whole trip u keep shootin me ah... from dhoby to harbourfront u keep shooting...at sentosa he talk alot of crap abt me, zzz. say ytd was my day off and i was suppose to help the banglas and also the musical fountain show cannot start without me?! keep asking me to turn around on the tram so dun need to face him?! but, i managed to get my revenge and i whacked his toot; hahaz.... he was down dere at harbourfront chasing me la. hahaz... lol fats, you're a joker man...

alrite; iwanna go sentosa again, hahaz, play soccer and ride the luge onlil that's the kind of life i want! some pics below(yea i noe; something's wrong wif the alignment)

me strippin at palawan beach; cool rite? LOL


at underwater world

before the luge ride; stupid dumb helmets';lol

at the most asian corner tower i tink;lol

haiz..tmr's my big day, she hasn't added me yet and i juz hope i dun screw up tmr... wish me luck... ok; the post is real long; hope u aint bored. hahaz

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Thursday, September 21, 2006
10:47 PM

alrite; tmr's d last paper for prelims b4 d o's zzz. i really hate exams la; so boring 1... gotta mug and mug and mug and still ur results are like shit...tmr getting back my physics paper... and i aiming for atleast a b3.. hopefully i can get my aim...
todae chem prac i screwed d titration part... ppl got 19.5 i gt 20.2; damit lar, dunno wat the hell went wrong..den the extension question i wrote rubbish...aiya... prepared to get lousy results for this prelims oredi.. i guess i'll b entering cjc for d 1st 3 months liao...atleast betta than staying at home and rotting..so gotta chiong 1 more e maths den i'm free(for time being)... then saturday; SOCCER! muahahaz... getting so fat liao, LIKE RONSON; JUNHONG AND HAO FATS~gotta work off all these xtra fats i've gained during d prelim period and brush up on my skills; gettin too rusty liao...

ok; i really wished i had open my damned mouth and say something to HER! instead of juz HIM... that was a real gd dam chance to talk to HER and i juz kept my damn mouth shut... fuck it man; i really lost that opportunity to make frens wif her and i dunno if i will haf a second chance... still feeling so down... dunno how cheer up

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Friday, September 15, 2006
8:02 PM

hejun MY COMP BROKE DOWN! says:
i love you darling
(stunned tio)

lol... yeaps, today was chem, and i screwed my paper 2 real bad. its nt that i nvr study or i suck at chem, but its like i think so much? for instance, theres this q on decomposition on silver chloride wif light... at 1st, i thought its d light that decompose agcl, but wo yue xiang yue bu ke nang leh... so i juz thought its was coz of d heat and well; its was WRONG!, shud nt haf think so much... the other 1 was wat was d alloy in which copper and zinc was made up of and i thought of brass, BUT, i kept thinking bronze was better as it had a Z in it... and i put BRONZE, damit! paper 1 was ok, i wanna noe if dere's any diff in yield in the haber process for conditions 200 degress and 400 degress wif same pressure, coz that one i put it as same yield but alot of ppl said higher temp= more ammonia decomposed, but it hasn't even reached d optinium temp so it wont decompose wat, RITE?

screwed my phy paper 2 oso, but atleast paper 1 was ez, free frag, now waiting for amaths on monday, my vectors sucks big time, dunno understand a single shit, oh wells..


says:
?
hejun MY COMP BROKE DOWN! says:
oh sharks!
hejun MY COMP BROKE DOWN! says:
wrong conversation
hejun MY COMP BROKE DOWN! says:
haha
says:
zzz
hejun MY COMP BROKE DOWN! says:
dontworry i love you too
(THIS IS WORSE!)

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Thursday, September 14, 2006
2:26 PM

guess that feeling's coming back again... i dun wanna feel like this anymore, its juz so painful... all the agony, all the torture, i wished i was a person without any feelings... seriously, am i really that uselss? someone's gotta help me, or i'll nvr ever get to know the feeling of happiness...

WHY THE HELL AM I DELUDING MYSELF? ITS OVER, GEDDIT? i juz wanna noe why? why why and why...

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Monday, September 11, 2006
8:32 PM

ZZZ DAMN IT LAR! WHY IN THE BLOODY HELL CANT I SIGN IN MSN!? FCK IT LAR. THIS MORNING I WAS ABLE TO SIGN IN, BUT AFTER MY DUMB COMPUTER HANGED, I CANT SIGN IN ANYMORE! DUNNO SAYING WAT CRAP, SAYING CANT CONNECT COZ THE SERVICE IS TEMPORARY DOWN?! BULLSHIT! WENT TO LOOK UP IN THE WEBSITE AND THEY ASKED ME TO SIGN IN LATER, AND AT NITE I TRIED SIGNING IN AND ITS STILL THE SAME STUPID OLD MSG?! TRIED EVERYTHING, INCLUDING REINSTALING THE MESSENGER, BUT ITS STILL THE SAME! ZZZ, DOES IT MEANS I HAVE TO FOLLOW ALOY AND SIGN IN FROM E-BUDDY? THATS JUZ PLAIN DUMB, TECHNOLOGY SUCKS BIG TIME... SO PISSED OFF NOW

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Sunday, September 10, 2006
9:38 PM

dunno y i'm still so upset, but i guess this is life eh? dunno y i have to go thru all this bullshit and make myself suffer. mayb i juz too n00b or too angry or simply i like her too much...still thinking of going back to d past where i dun have such things on my mind, where i kept thinking she likes me and i like her and ... but that's nvr gonna b possible now. i oso dunno y, if she doesn't like me, why does she bother to waste energy to turn behind and look at me in the eye.. but i should known right before all along that i am really bluffing myself by thinking she likes me, coz she has so many male frens, why would she be interested in an idiot like me! but am i a person that is not worthy to befriend? still rmb i went to her blog and tagged, she said she , erm, wanna die? i was like...
juz wondering hasn't it occurred to her that i may have liked her? i mayb not know her, but i looked at her, added her on friendster, tagged her and WANTED to add her on msn, but ron said i shouldn't make d 1st move, but i still made it and...dunno wat to do now, so helpless, so lost, so confused... i can feel all the sorrows pouring into me every single moment.

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Saturday, September 09, 2006
8:34 PM

sianz, i really hate studying... and i hate physics now, studying for abt 6 hrs of physics and i feel like vomiting! life's juz so boring with exams... and i really look forward to the day where it's d last day of d O lvls! i'll really go mad on that day and celebrate like siao... but, right now, i tink i have grown much fatter, zzz... tummy now aint as flat as b4 and it's bulging a little?! damit, dun wanna grow fat n look like ron fats they all(hahaz), wanna grow thinner and thinner, its much better! but i'm so bz studying, and i cant do some exercises coz i'll disturb my neighbours. sg education system sucks big time. i shud b d nxt education minister and help all d students la, they'll have a much better lifestyle. well; i go off le la, wanna sleep le, and jay chou rocks man!

how i wished she was mine, can she still be mine?

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Friday, September 08, 2006
5:24 PM

ah; jay chou's new album: Still Fantasy!

songs i like:
-Ting Mama De Hua
-Qian Li Zi Wai
-Xin Yu
-Bai Se Feng Che
-Tui Hou
-Ju Hua Tai
-Ye De Di QI Zang
-Ben Cao Gang Mu

soso:
-Mi Die Xiang
-Hong Mo Fang

heh, that's wat i think of jay chou's new album

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Thursday, September 07, 2006
4:03 PM

suddenly feel like blogging; after studying for 4 hrs and doing 2 physics papers, feel so sian, dun feel like doing a 3rd 1... ytd studied abit of chem and also ABIT of amaths; both onli 1 hr each... sianzzzzz i hate studying, juz so boring..

last sat was AFA; was pretty ez, juz forgot how many litres of blood to cause shock and also wat to do when old man gt fit...d exam we could still chat la; den after that was practical; and it was juz elevation and arm sling. after that, we sure took a long time on deciding where to go next... was arguing at d army market, coz cc dun wanna go yck and wanna stay inside d city area; but we wanna go yck grassroots club fer bowling coz it was cheap, so in d end, we ps cc and went yck wif ron, kl, weeliang, willis and ron. saw sy and she onli waved to willis; so sad, nvr wave at weeliang, he muz feeling veh heartbroken. oh well; back to d pt, took a pic on d mrt wif mirror reflection and we saw this ridiculous notice at d interchange, some guy asking for a galfren, dunno wat crap! went to d bowling alleys and found it was closed till 3, so we played arcade till 3pm . zzz, the counter said it was fully booked, damit, hands so itchy den tell me so lanes... decided to play pool and i played much better this time! still rmb d 1st time i played pool was at concourse, went to play wif shunren aloy they all, and i tink i nearly poked somebody in d ass wif d cue stick, we were laughing like mad, and d ppls besides us were also laughing, coz we were utter n00bs! anyhow hit d ball la! played abt 3 games on sat and i was getting frozen, den walked to d mrt... and... and... WTF MAN! i was walking and this old man walked past me and whispered in my ear: Hello, sweetie?!!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!!?!!!!!!!!??????????????? WTF?! PERVERT OLD MAN! damit! still gt nightmares over it!

won't haf to go sch for mon, tues and thurs nxt week, but i'll b studying la, so boring! science prac's are also coming and i dunno how to prepare for the pracs'...

btw, tmr jay chou's 7th album is coming out tmr, but i've listened to all the songs.. nt bad la, but gt quite a few raps and i like 8 out of the 10 songs. guess i'll have to wait till my bro comes bak tmr coz he;s buying d cd and he's coming back at nite, zzz.

gotta study for my physics le la, on nxt wed, sianzzzzzzzzz

each time i tink of how you fooled me, i'll cry

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
11:56 PM

I
-feel so tired
-think that this is all bullshit
-dun believe that i'm juz an object for pleasure-viewing
-miss her
-hate her
-wished all this never happened
-wished i never met her
-wanna sing the song ronson sent me to her
-dunno wat the hell to do
-dun wanna think so much
-want to have a better life
-hope either she comes back or i move on

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Friday, September 01, 2006
9:28 PM

its been a long time since i've blogged, kinda busy mugging fer d prelims...

prelims started on monday, starting wif english AND the directed essay was simply ridiculous... it was abt writing an email but i simply wrote rubbish... the paper 2 was even worse, i dunno how answer most of the q's, but at least d summary was quite easy...didn't really care abt tues, coz i dun gif a damn abt chinese so i studied geog and emaths... i juz screwed my geog also...LUCKILY I STUDIED AGRICULTURE, OR I'LL BE DEAD! stupid manufacturing questions, so hard 1...now i gotta mug for my physics liao, but it'll be better than the prelim 1... i onli gt 62 for prelim 1 and its oredi a veh gd score judging from d fact tat many ppl din do well... even d A class... i wanna get my A for my sciences, coz they're my strength. besides, TMR'S AFA AND I HAVEN STUDIED... BUT SO DID D REST WHO ARE TAKING D EXAM! I DUN REALLY CARE la.... but i oso hope to pass, wonder how's that gonna happen...will b wearing tat yellow color pt kit once more, hahaz;

ytd was d teachers celebration... in d morning oredi got a huge shock la, dam! but oh well, listened to new song by jay chou. his new album's gonna come out next friday and i juz cant wait to buy it! well, its either i buy it or my bro buys it... we'll see den... but ytd was kind of sian oso la, d stupid mr cool, IT SHUD HAVE BEEN ME LA, IF I GO FOR D COMPETITION, I'LL TRASH EVERYBODY! hahaz; had tidbits in d morning and saw yuan feng playing poker wif d classmates... lol; teacher playing poker nia... interesting... had a talk with winson abt my troubles...

d hols are coming; yet i dun really feel very happy... mayb coz it's d continuation of prelims after d hols, meaning i haf to study thru d hols so this is gonna be my worst hols, sianzzzzz I DUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNN WWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNAAAAAAA SSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTUUUUUUUDDDDDDDDDYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIFE'S SO BORING WIF JUZ STUDYING...


how i wish, that one day, how much i luv you... i'll b waiting patiently, hoping you'll let me say that... but will it ever come? i still cant believe you juz took me as onli a person for ur viewing pleasure! so all the times you've looked at me were juz meant for fun?! why? life sucks when you've been fooled... and i've been so stupid enough, but i still believe that you look at me coz you like me.. mayb; mayb and mayb...

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