Total Eclipse of the Heart;

~~Thursday, December 27, 2007~~

7:04 PM

LightHouse-Blind

I was young
but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you goI would fall asleep

Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

played soccer with my sjab bros and some of my 0713 friends. met fats 1st near my house. then took bus to tp and met ron. waited for aloy for a LONG time la. went yakun and then walked over to fish bus stop. ran for the bus and went to ny. walked in and my friends were already there. played 5 on 5 1st and won the 1st round. played a couple more times and i felt veh 'shiok'. haven't been playing soccer for a very long time. went out to eat with my friends and then went to toapayoh with jy. told him smth tt i kept from him fer quite long on the way. lols. played arcade then walked home. changed into my clothes after bathing and went out.

had dinner at marché.was pretty ex. walked around and see tt the prices were shocking la. ate a beef steak and kwek treated me with quite a number of things. saw fats, aloy vidic ron at there oso la. must have went to see the scenary. played soccer at the vivo fountain. was pretty FUN! the last game me and fats were winning 4-2. den become 4-4. THEN LOST! zzz. went to dry my jeans after that and took the mrt home.

had the OGL workshop today. had some talks and icebreaker games. was pretty boring. had mass dance in the afternoon. it was fun and tiring la. practiced the trad dance 1st with char, then practiced the 30th dance. ended at around 6. realised tt i've to reach NY at 630 for all 3 days of orientation. damn.

heh. going nuts now.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, December 23, 2007~~

5:01 PM

Empty-The Click Five

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's
Empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I've got a peice of paper
But it's Empty

It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying to hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty

And I even wonder
If weShould be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's Empty

It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty

Oh, oh.
Oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
Oh, oh.Oh, oh.

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty
(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying to hard)
(Maybe we're torn apart)

We're Empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're Empty

Things I'll Never Say-Avril Lavigne
[Verbal Acoustics]

[verse 1:]
I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

[pre-chorus:]
I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth this
Yeah...

[chorus:]
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

[verse 2:]
It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you, what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out (If it ain't comin' out)
We're not goin' anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care?

[pre-chorus:]
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

[chorus:]
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
(Uh) With these things I'll never say

[bridge:]
What's wrong, with my tongue
These words keep slippin' away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothin' to say
[pre-chorus:]
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah!
[Verbal Acoustics]

[chorus:]
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down on one knee
Marry me today!
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
These things I'll never say

these two great songs. thanks ronson.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

12:42 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO VIDIC. though i think he'd rather fly to hk arh.

went for the aj-cum-cj concert on friday. went to wild wild wet with my family before that and gt sunburnt pretty bad. met HAOFENG at toapayoh to play abit of pool. took the train to amk, alighted and waited fer aloy. tooked some train to woodlands and met HAOFENG friends. took bus over to republic poly and soon the concert started. not bad la the concert, but somehow just feel like sleeping. ate meringues(or whatever it is) offered by HAOFENG fren. talked to yongdi and he's like pretty much the same. tooked a few pics and the concert ended at 9 plus. walked back to causeway point and ate the pastamania. lols while at the table, the F word was spilling all over from my mouth. BUT, its not the vulgar F. lols. only HAOFENG will know what it is. took the mrt back and then aloy alighted 1st. talked about HAOFENG imaginary friend. lols the girls were like ???. they must be thinking we're nuts. i alighted next at toapayoh. took 145 home and tts all.

met ronson, aloy, FATS, vidic, john at yck. went to the grassroot club to play pool. lols. had lots of fun there crapping. played for about 2 hour plus, then took the train to yishun. went to see the ajc alumni choir singing. could only see yu huai dere la, the rest i don't really recognize. went to macs to eat our dinner. aloy wanted to go to the orchid country club to join his family. saw his family a couple of times before and his mom recognize me. my bowling wasn't too bad. the 1st ball was a gutterball la. lols, but the 1st game,i gt 130 la, one point behind aloy. and i still can't get my turkey. guess this christmas ain't for me but fats. cos he got his turk. gt 5 spares in a row though, but there's no name for such trick. gt 152 for the second game and soon aloy's dad came. played the 3rd game and got 148. then aloy's father suggested i use a heavier ball cos mine's only 9 pounds. got 1 11 pounds and then my score went downhill. aloy's father joined us for the last game and he was pretty pro la. so the last game i only got 86 itink. lols with the heavy ball i can't even aim properly la. felt bad at the end cos aloy's dad paid for our games. 4 bucks per game, with me vidic fats and ron games. about 80 plus? lols. walked outside and took bus back to khatib. the train only went to amk, so went to amk and my last 130 left already, cos it was like 12.30 liao. took 88 with fats back to toapayoh and walked home. reached home at around 1. pretty late ehh?

did some hw today. 5 pges of chem and 1 question of physics. AND I REALLY DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING LIAO LA. still gotta call my og members la. PICK UP THE PHONE PLEASE. feel irritated cos i called like 10 times for each person la.

we're empty.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, December 18, 2007~~

9:43 PM

back from a pretty short break.

went to ronson's house to stayover for liverpool vs man utd match. met them at dhoby for dinner. aloy was the latest la, kinda surprised la, cos ronson's would usually take his place. went to carls junior for dinner and walked abit. took the mrt and went j8 to buy tidbits. took bus over and walked up to his house. well it's pretty easy to imagine his house. 4 storys in total. 3rd time goin dere. it's sort of like half a bungalow la. told us is worth 2 million? tink mine's worth like 2 dollars?zzz. watched the stars award and then the big game. van der sar was as big piece of shit, seriously. gave us alot of heart attack. when man u scored, ronson's house didn't collaspe. lol 3 ppl only wat. cant shout tt loud. fats was praying hard for a liverpool goal la. played monopoly while arsenal vs chel was on and i was nearly 'pok' a few times? zzz. fats, the fat and big winner with multiple collaboration. damit. went to play soccer like 2am in the morning and within 15 mins, the police came. imagine 5 sweaty boys half-naked facing the police. looks like some gang fight la. actually not la with fats. well gt booked and another warning, like that time in yishun, while playing soccer with aloy and leh.

went to put the stuffs and walked over to the prata shop. since willis took his laptop dere, we just surfed friendster to find pretty girls. lols. lots of them though, many from fats la. zzz well cj sure do have lots of them. walked back, and slept a little. woke p at 7 to play soccer. it was some sort of revenge for the asshole who called the police the previous night. played for about 10+rounds. gt pretty exhausted. went back and walked over to thomson plaza to have yakun. lunched, walked over to thomson cc to take bus with fats. we went to my house for a pretty short while and then, he left for home. and i slept like free.woke up to find myself late for the ogl sentosa gamemaster briefing. damit la. walkedin at 10, when it was suppose to start at 8. nobody said a thing. joined gh group and played some games, organized by the council. some pretty lame though but nonetheless, quite impt for the ogls. realised tt there's no more kayak trg for the rest of the month. lols gonna enjoy myself!

is there anyone?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Saturday, December 15, 2007~~

9:39 PM

didn't had soccer, as expected. 7 only. oh wells. next saturday mayb? hais. woke up today to reply all the people tt soccer's cancelled. did tt with a pretty heavy heart though. vidic wanted to go out so i asked him to msg aloy and kl. slept at noon and woke up at like 320? lols rushed out and met vidic at amk snookerium. played with him for 2 games and fats came. lols. played about 3 hours of pool and then argued on where to eat. i wanted to eat at amk hub, fats wanted novena sq and vidic wanted somerset(siao!). took the train 1st cos i lost, then while on the way, vidic kept saying somerset la. nutcase.

in the end, alighted at novena cos we just walked out. lols so vidic lost in the end. walked around novena wondering what to eat. looked at fish & co prices but they were too ex. up till now, i still haven't eaten a meal at fish & co. walked over to magic wok but it was full. decided on pepper lunch in the end. thought john was coming but didn't see him. ate the beef pepper rice. walked around velocity. went over to the newly-opened donut factory and ate the cinammon chocolate. vidic and fats ate the same la. so we're like 3 gayshits liddat. went over to ah mei coffee toast and had the 'yuan yang' or smth liddat. it was a mixture of coffe and tea. didn't taste very good.

walked home after that, cos it was pretty near. 15 mins i reached liao lo. tomorrow's the big match, man u vs pool. hopefully i'll be able to see it.

so it's time again? so fast it is.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, December 14, 2007~~

6:28 PM

just returned from the disastrous cip event. wells. i'm having a bad sore throat and feeling so exhausted.

went for the 15 chalet yesterday night. went around 7 plus in the evening at changi village and ate chicken rice with part of the 15 people-didi, weesiong, weijie, lina, chuen hwee, huiquan, ximin, garrett, ernest. argued with weesiong right away and yes, he is indeed my laming partner. he should be very honoured to have that role man. the meal was pretty cheap at 3.50. walked back to the chalet since it was pretty near. met the rest, from 0713 and john. well, john's got the same stupid short hairstyle as me la. and he's pretty thin. and i just realised tt he's in hockey in aj la. lols what a small world. guess he's pretty fit from his trg liao. watched the 9pm show, wasn't too bad. played big 2 and bridge and then later on, 'asshole' big 2. well if u are the asshole, then probably u'll stay as 1. chat a little and then played the highlights of the night. with a deck of cards in the middle and different colors and no. to represent different tasks to do, i drank the most number of drinks of alcohol. the alcohol was a 40% alcohol rum. it was so bitter it burnt my throat la, and my face turned red early in the game. probably cos i drink the rum 4 times. damit.

many funny rules were made and i did alot of forfeits la. played soccer after the game and couldn't really see the ball properly. abit drunk i guess. played blackjack after that and we were all laughing because it's either chek or ernest that goes bankrupt with the peanuts we used. the bickering among these 2 is really comical la. played till about 4, then went to bathe. went to upstairs after that to sleep. woke up at about 650. had trouble contacting sohee as her hp was off and we were like discussing the fastest route to cck, the venue of our cip. left the chalet with everybody at abt 8. we knew we could confirmed be late as we planned to take 29 to tampines and then 67 to cck. and the bus trip was estimated to abt 2 hours. lols. soh ee arrived later on and we took the next 67. chatted abit then fell asleep. huixin had trouble cos her tea spilled and it landed on the seat. used the tissue wrapping to help to block her 'overflow'. arrived at phoenix station and took the lrt to keat hong station and met hazel. walked to 28 hong san terrance with my skills since the rest could not lead.

well. now for the cip. it was well, kinda disastrous cause we had trouble even asking the kids to SIT DOWN. they simply just ran around like nutcases. my group had this 'superman' aka ming zheng. well he was like sorta sticking to me and giving a hell lot of troubles. made him promise me tt he'll be good and he just runs away the next minute. oh wells. don't really know how to describe the event in detail but i just ended screaming my lungs out and having a bad sore throat. took mrt back home and think i'm gonna sleep. soccer tomorrow? mayb not, since ronson's not back yet in singapore. damn, another failed attempt.

i'm always beneath your line of vision. just so small.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, December 12, 2007~~

11:44 PM

back after a stagnant period. didn't blog earlier on, as the computer was being repaired. well all the man did was to upgrade the memory. didn't repair the windows installer problem and i still can reinstall live messenger. windows messenger sucks man, so old and useless.

went to buy various presents for the children at united sq yesterday. met jy at tp then went down to novena. met them and went to bk 1st for my meal. eventually went to united sq with kheng meng, jy, wl, chek keng, guohao, yanchao, huixin. shopped around and irritated the staff at the store,toy 'r' us. lols tink we're the only group to buy 700 dollars worth of presents using cash and upfront. changed many presents and eventually went to the counter to buy them. went down to the basement to have the presents wrapped and the staff downstairs were like 'OMG' la. i would if i were them. tons of presents to wrap la. but they were fast in the first place. sorted out the presents and took them back to the main store to have them delivered. huixin was like taking fotos and takin video la. lols.

yanchao and chek keng went back halfway, and at the end, kheng meng left too. went to novena sq to have our dinner but decided to go to square². while at novena sq, there was this hockey event being held. the rest was like egging me to try, so i thought why not? tried it and won the 1st 2 rounds, 4-2, 5-4. lost the 3rd round and also the chance to win a voucher. hit 2 pucks by accident and well, lost 2-3. video was taken by huixin and they were screamin fer me la. thanks man guys!. went to have our dinner at square 2 and then went to arcade with jy and weiliang. saw the little boy tt i haven seen in ages la. and his advanced sure improved. went home after that and played maple. chionged 20% and went to sleep.

nothing much today. had trg and it was changed to school. did gym and abs. had a discussion for the kayak outing and i realised that i wont b able to go as it clashes with the cip. probably will be going to char's house for stayover. went to central with mao and zixian. realised how short i am la. imagine yourself walking within 2 guys who are 180+ cm tall. damn, how i wished tt i am taller.

going for the 15 chalet tmr. dunno how's everybody now , especially those who left ny after 1st three months. lols.

so long and goodnight.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, December 06, 2007~~

6:03 PM

Got pretty bored, so i decided to upload random images i had. lols. enjoy them.

Hilarious! lols.

Find me. Pretty easy.

Find me. Pretty easy though again.

Clinical striker. Why did he had to leave?

Pretty white then, now it's all black.

Chicky on Grad day. It'll live on forever.

Damn, my dream school kicked me out.

O level results collection.

NY0713 sentosa trip. Guys only.

went to see another different doctor today. again, medicine didn't help. had no 'sense of balance' and giddy. kinda pissed off already. what if i never recover? zzz.

Do you leave and know you've met me?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, December 05, 2007~~

8:17 AM

Norwegian Recycling-How Six Songs Collide

(Jason Mraz-I'm Your's)
Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours

(Howie Day-Collide)
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

(Jason Mraz-I'm Your's)
Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

(Howie Day-Collide)
But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind(i'm sure there's no need to complicate our time )
I somehow find, you and I collide(is short this is our fate, i'm yours )

(Five for Fighting-Superman)
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

(Angela Ammons-Always getting over you)
Was it not enough stimulation
Hit by a brick the other day,
just when I thought that I’m okay
You didn't like my conversation
I can't come up with something new
It doesn't really matter what I do
So here’s my observation
You could never see it through my eyes
And I’m too tired to try

(Boyzone-All that I need)
I was lost and alone
trying to grow
making my way down that long winding road
And no reason no rhyme
like a song out of time
and there you were standing
in front of my eyes
how could I be such a fool
to let go of love and break all of the rules
girl when you walked out that door
left a hole in my heart
and now I know for sure

(Do, do, do, do, do (6x))-Angela Ammons

(3 Doors Down-Here without you)
I’m here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight,
I'm yours(And don't)

(Angela Ammons-Always getting over you)
lie and say you’re over me
It don't mean nothing
I’m always getting over you

I was lost and alone-Boyzone
But you're still on my lonely mind-3 Doors Down
It cannot wait, i'm yours-Jason Mraz
I can't stand to fly-Five for Fighting
finally find, you and i collide-Howie Day
I'm just out to find-Five For Fighting

finally find, you and i collide(x2)-Howie Day

Had nothing to do, so i did the full lyrics for this song. really nice song. 6 songs in total. not sure which norwegian did it, but it rocks! long song too, 5:50 mins. well 'sent' ronson off. lols. he was pretty bored cos well, nvm. hais. i need luck for my own adventures. haven't really done my homework, don't even feel like doing la.

I fell right throught the cracks, and i'm trying to get back
Out of the doubts that fills my mind
And it's not easy to be me
You could never see it through my eyes
Like a song out of time
But you're still on my lonely mind

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, December 04, 2007~~

9:53 PM

went to see doc yesterday cos i've been feeling very giddy and having no sense of 'balance' ever since the chalet. well, the medicine didn't help, still feeling it la. wasted my money. went for trg after that and the EFFING WIND was bloody strong. capped like lots of time too. did medicine and gym after that and went home. missed 15 mins of 'Heroes' but still could understand the plot.

met ronson at bishan today. went from toapayoh to bishan then BACK to toapayoh. lols kinda dumb. played pool, and i was like shiat. ate dinner with ronson, chatted and went back. and i'm still feeling veh giddy la. damn.

and hopefully, kwek can recover fast from his injury and join us soon!

everything comes crashin' down. why does it always happens this way?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, December 02, 2007~~

5:48 PM

woke up at abt 7 this morning to support the standard chart runners from our class. had much difficulty dragging myself out of bed, considering i slept at 2 last night. took 145 to padang and saw kwek they all on the other side of the road. didn't wanna cut the lane 1st, so i stayed on my side. saw chuen hwee immediately when i reached. waited awhile and saw honghao and gabriel running together. crossed the road finally after they 2 passed and waited with kwek and the rest. walked over to 'meeting point' where everybody gt lost and had to wait again. saw eunice volunteering at the stalls, not sure for wat aspects. still rmb i did public duty with sjab for the standard chart too. kwek with off with his frens and went to KFC with chuen and honghao. chatted about going for the marathon next year, but i don't think i can qualify for it, cos i won't be 18 when the marathon comes. heard there's a new marathon, 'sundown' or smth. wanna go participate in that one too!

took 145 back home and slept awhile. went to arcade after that and found out tt jieyang returned from japan already. lols, didn't even tell us. played a while before going home, where i'm blogging now.

damn, ronson's departing for old trafford on wednesday la. I WANNA GO ALSO! someday, i'll definitely visit Manchester United homeground, Old Trafford! someday.

like the 'How Six Songs Collide' song la. tink it rocks man!

everything seems impossible to me.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

12:41 AM

MSHSJAB really rocks to the core! no kidding about that. just came back from the 40th anniversary of MSHSJAB and i really miss the days in SJ. chicky club, activities, punishments, cadet lives, NCO lives, MAC tortures, Com training, pants splitting during the ZFA.

went to collect my passport today, and wore quite formally, with a collar shirt and jeans, for the anniversary celebration later on. had to wait a freaking 2 hours la. kinda pissed off la. went to meet my parents near bugis and went to bright hill monastery. asked for my ahma to bless me with good lucks in my life. then, went to tp to meet leh, aloy, kl, ronson. went to arcade 1st and john came later on. took 155 and still remembered sweet fish! lols. kinda long time ago. crapped with chicky and so on. reached MSHS late and went to the TK Low Hall later on. ron was like busy looking for the pretty uni student from HSC. had some performances by the cadets and helped to set up the tables for the guests with jh. but no restraints of course! me and kl set the table cloth wrongly la! put it into a square shape instead of a diamond. sat at another table and started eating. started crapping about lots of stuffs, like 'cock where gt tails cos our drinks was cocktails'. food tasted great except for the beehoon, which was tasted weird. went back to TK Low hall to later on, and see De liang sir retiring from the corp superintendent post, to pass it on to aiden sir, the 12th superintendent since the formation of MSHSJAB. the videos sure remind me of my own POP la! the whole event at about 1030 and we took quite a number of pics. will be looking at the MSHSJAB webbie to find more pics taken. took 155 back to tp and went to eat macs with aloy and ron. ron left halfway and talked about random stuffs with aloy. hais, really miss those great days man!

i drive from exit to exit, with no way through

expressing the emptiness inside me..