Once upon a time, I was the happiest person on earth
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only me in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

PROFILE

Weihan aka BBR;SGPS; MSHS; NYJC(0713); NYKRT; Manchester United Football Club; Ruud van Nistelrooy

DESIRES
Her; TPY Zone X Sega Daytona 1994 no.4

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Monday, October 30, 2006
2:23 PM

lol; chinese really sucks man... took the o level chinese and its like...zzzzzzzz

found out that for the cloze passage; i gt 7 wrong..zzz lanjiao lar... my chinese's always gonna b or c...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, October 24, 2006
3:14 PM

pieces of broken glasses all over the places in front of me; i'll need to tread carefully among these pieces of glass...

the treading starts thurs; 12 noon...
these pieces of glass are;
chinese
el
e maths
a maths
phy
chem
humans
guess all these papers are juz what i've been waiting for after 4 years... 4 years just for half a month... not really proportionate... but i've no choice...

bailing out time: 16 november twenty-06 5:15pm....

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Monday, October 23, 2006
12:17 AM

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so DUMB!!! all the while the stupid thumbdrive was inside my pocket and i just spent 2 hours trying to find it and it was in my POCKET... should have been studying all these while...

btw; i still feel that life sucks BIG TIME

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Sunday, October 22, 2006
11:35 PM

life's simply just so tough... i'd most probably be dead if i dun control myself...lost so much in a short period; but all i can say its my dumb fault... my stupidity; my laziness; my clumsiness and brashness... i guess this is really the self-destruction of myself. yeap; willis i'm sorry; i lost ur thumb drive... but i'll definitely pay you back... i dunno where the hell it went, ransacked the whole room but still couldn't find it... all i can say is i'm real sorry... guess i'm too careless and fucking lazy...

dunno y i get all the shits in life... like todae; someone close to me said i'm stupid; mayb i really am... mayb i'm but who knows... i feel life's so tiring; so hurtful... lost everything that's either important to me or somebody...lost her; lost myself; lose fren's belongings... i wanna go eat shit and die...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Thursday, October 19, 2006
10:24 AM

WHY THE FUCK DID CHELSEA WIN BARCA? DAMIT LAR!

ok; back to studying...

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Saturday, October 14, 2006
6:30 PM

ONCE A MARIST; ALWAYS A MARIST!'

i always remember the words above... yeap.... LAST LAST OFFICIAL DAY in maris stella and its the LEAVERS CEREMONY!wahahaz... took so many pics, argued so much wit tommy and chatted so much... and so; i've now officially graduated from maris stella high; a school which i had fun joy laughter and sorrow; a school which i sometimes hated; a school that holds my friends and me; a school which holds beautiful and ugly memories for me. all i can say is: MARIS STELLA ROCKS BIG TIME. I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS SCHOOL, A SCHOOL THAT IS BEST IN MY HEART FOR NOW.

before the leavers ceremony, went out wit ron they all to mj open hse. pretty boring so we juz left shortly after we went in... went back school and stoned there till 5... btw ytd was leh's bdae so HAPPY BIRTHDAE LEH...lol; so now onli left me and kl in chicky club that's nt reached 16 and my one is the last... zzz

den 5.15 and i went back to class for attendance and received the red tie; pretty nice... and also a chinese compo book. den walked to the pri sch hall... lol; the table no. was 28 which was the same as my register no. for the past 2 years... lol should have stolen the number la...den kept arging wit tommy la, so noisy one him...but i guess i will miss all these crapping wit him...
ah; then lighting
of the marist flame... my darling went on stage as former president of the student council and he was telling me he was damn nervous la... lol keep shakin his hands wit the lighter in it...Y NVR BURN HIMSELF?! lol; i'm so bad... den brother and the vip gave a speech. pretty boring here. den all the students had to go on stage 1 by 1 to get their blue round folder which was suppose to contain our prelim results.. but it was empty la... also receive the title of cert of merit for SJAB(sry jh; you sure will get urs 1 lar... u're our chairman wat...sure gt some mistake somewhere or mayb they forget announce; dun worry so much).
some of 4B went singing the "seasons in the sun" on stage. i still remember the movie of us.. lol! cant rmb clearly;den 4c also went up to sing "peng you"by zhou hua jian but there was also the video presentation of the teachers speeches...all of their words are words of encouragements of cuz la... cant really rmb the order... but they also showed all the class pics of the whole level; den showed our personal pics wit the blazer... i looked damn freaking sleepy la...den the whole teaching staff went up on stage to sing a song "same something" forgot the title; but its a real nice song, ron u gt can pls send me? DARLING went on stage again to pass the marist flame to his junior; brandon; the current president; which is also my junior in SJAB. THEN; THE SCHOOL SONG! OMG; ITS DAMN FREAKING LOUD LA... SUMMORE ITS GOT THE "OI" IN THE SONG. wahahz... its so loud man; guess everybody also cherishes this moment. then DINNER! ate dinner buffet style and after that; PHOTOS TIMES. lol ; i was like bz taking fotos wit my SJAB frens i nvr take wit my class la... onli at the end i found a few ppl and took pics wit them. lol. took pics together; chicky club; wit denis koh; kwok; panda teacher; I'LL ALWAYS KEEP THESE PHOTOS FOR MEMORIES! after that; went canteen to rest and played a little joga..lol... i tink we were the last group of marists to leave sch lo...

now abt SJAB... i will definitely missssssss all those wonderful memories la... all the different moments... BNCO; ANCO; zone com; pants splitting infront of female casualty; getting pumpings from officers; grace( GRAPES; haiz); eng teck;aaron nai( milk; i still hate you) and all other diff memories... i really cherish them all and i will never ever forget thems; THANKS GUYS AND GALS!





went out to diff jcs todae for their open houses; namely VJC; AJC and SAJC! i like VJC best la... its my dream jc; but i guess WANTING to go VJC and QUALIFYING for VJC is very different. with my prelims results so lan; i guess i cant really get into vj. went there at 10 for the start of open house and saw the MASS DANCE; woo; it rocks man.. got tricked to view a CO performance(UR FAULT LA LEH) den went to walk around... den finally went to listen to the principal talking.... was off schedule.. left vidic aloy and leh behind as we rushed to AJC for the open house... but it was like so empty la... went dere for awhile to view the school facilities and its like OMG! the canteen's like worse than maris stella la... and maris stella's canteen is already damn cham. couldn't get the goodie bag as it was all finished lo. den went over to sajc and its like a damn maze inside there la... but the facilities is damn zai... trash mshs a thousand times lo. saw clara from campus superstar... and something else beside her; ALOY PERVERT SIA! collected the shoe bag they gave away and went over to the coffee shop to eat... its DAMN FREAKING HOT LA...SUMMORE I WEARING JEANS. learnt that vjc cut off for pae is 6; aj is 11; and sa is 9?! DAMIT; Y SA BETTER THAN A? WANTED TO GO SA BUT NOW A LOOKS MORE APPROPRIATE. i juz reached the cutoff after bonus la; dunno whether izit enuff for me to guarantee a place... zzz sianzzzzzzzz

all rite; starting to pia liao; wanna get to VJ for JAE.... i wanna be six-pointer... but veh hard. english sucks like hell man... cya folks.

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Saturday, October 07, 2006
11:57 AM

alrite; back after a few days of absence; dumb computer broke down...
yep; ytd was the official last day of school; but certainly not the last time i'll be in mshs...gotta go back during this month for some xtra lessons... but i guess i'll miss the laughter of my friends; the teachings of the teachers and all the good times i've had in mshs.. whether izit class or cca... miss arguing with tommy; miss calling yong di a G@Y; miss calling harng yi a dumb n00b; miss the darling from hejun and arguing wit him; miss playing pokers in the class when dere's no teachers and many many other things... for cca; its was wonderful; except for 1 bastard... guess i'm much closer to my cca frens than my class friends; but u cant help it; cca lets u bond for 4 years while class at most onli for 2 years? i cant really describe the times i've had fun and sorrow wit my SJAB pals; guess its juz too much to say out...but I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU ALL; THANKS GUYS! YOU PEOPLE REALLY MADE MY SECONDARY LIFE COMPLETE! THANKS (CLASS):YONG DI; TOMMY; HEJUN; JIAYUAN; WEIBIN; GUOHAO; HARNG YI; ZI XIAN AND WINSON! (SJAB): ALOY; NICK YEO; LEH; JH; RON; VIDIC; KL; JOHN; HAO FENG; WILLIS; CC; BEN; DESMOND; JIA HAO; CHARLES; DON; YEE KIAT! i'll definitely miss you guys if u all go diff jc from me... all ican sae altho there were many days before 6 oct i said that mshs sucks; but i guess it doesn't really sucks. we all sang the school song veh loudly and i bet it'll be the loudest the coming friday for the ceremony... i just cant wait for the ceremony!!

btw; HAPPY BDAE TO CHIH CHUAN AND HAO FENG... hahaz... wish them a real happie sixteen!

damn the stupid haze la... its like my hse is on the 18th floor den gt damn lots of wind blowing into the hse ALONG WITH THE STUPID HAZE! damn


now abt her; i guess this is really the end; i tried my best in getting to know her as onli a friend but it didn't work...i guess the burden on my shoulders has only lightened abit; so what i would really want would be that she tells how she felt about me all these 8 months...try as i hard to forget; it is really so hard to do it...i'll simply just be waiting for the day where i can laugh and smile when my friends talk abt her, i really am...

now i know how a fool feels like.

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Thursday, October 05, 2006
5:21 AM

all i can say that its now over; all i wanna do now is to concentrate on my o levels and nothing else... byee

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