Once upon a time, I was the happiest person on earth
But now, I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now, there's only me in the dark
There's nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

PROFILE

Weihan aka BBR;SGPS; MSHS; NYJC(0713); NYKRT; Manchester United Football Club; Ruud van Nistelrooy

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Her; TPY Zone X Sega Daytona 1994 no.4

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Wednesday, October 31, 2007
8:51 PM

alrite! so tmr's the big day fer me and NY069! actually i'm kind of sick of saying 'thank you jieyang. i'm weihan, the third speaker of my group. the next activity blah blah blah' liao la...hais so i'm gonna say it all loud, clear and slow fer 1 last time tmr! zzz. and seriously i dunno why i'm so suay la, 2 assessors, 1m+1cm and 3 moe officials la. summore the officials sit ALL THE WAY TO THE BACK, so i gotta shout fer 5 mins.

had op rehearsal today. went school at 1 to edit our video and also to try rehearsing with the big screen. crapped alot too. had op rehearsal yesterday. went to sch at 5 to rehearse with the teachers ard. did ok, but just tt all of us were veh fast tts all. cut a few of my contents to make my speech shorter so tt i can speak SLOWER. lol somehow speaking slowly is veh tedious fer me la. gonna play like mad after tmr! wheee! planning fer a picnic on monday at sentosa fer 0713! cant wait fer it man.

pull my strings just fer the thrills.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Monday, October 29, 2007
11:24 PM

slacked fer a few days la... lols...and im back to blogging.

saturday: went with my parents out, den went to arcade fer a while, broke my best time again. whee! gt 41.84 fer manual :). headed to junhong house after tt to play xbox. arrived the latest and watched chwee, jc, jh and his bro play halo 3. lols was quite interesting, since i never played it before. ate dinner tt jh's mom bought and went to play fifa. argued over which version to played and finally we played 08 1st. was pretty rusty since i didn't play since the x-square at dhoby closed down. damn, won jc, but lost to chwee while i was still trying to find the tackle button la. lost to jh oso, but the margin was 3-0, and i used rangers:). haha. DEN played 07. played with jh 1st, i chose man u and he chose arsenal. conceded 1 goal and managed to hang on till the 80th min. and carrick gt red and i conceded 5 goals in 10 mins la... zzz dunno what the hell my players were doing. watched the 1st half of man u vs boro and within 3 mins, i saw both sides score.... went home at halftime with chwee and he was busy chattin on the fone la. zzz.

sunday: SLACK! never even touch chinese. read the book 'the five people you meet in heaven'. lent by weiming. couldn't wait fer hazel to read finish so i borrowed from wm 1st. pretty nice book but i still like 'tuesday with morrie' best! its really talking about how to live life.

today: had chinese a level and i tink i didn't do quite well. especially fer the compre part. all sorts of rubbish answers i gave. played soccer and lost 8-5. lols was veh off form today la. missed alot of balls and shoes keep coming out. it didn't fly out but it was irritating enough. damn! played pool with ck den met ronson to play pool again and chatted about some cock stuffs. lols. sians... dere's gonna be op rehearsal tmr. hais. needa waste time go sch again.

use me as you will.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Friday, October 26, 2007
5:26 PM

forgot to blog ytd, was pretty tired and also watching tv shows. went to queensway to get the class jersey. gt back my i&r ytd and it was pretty shitty. guess this was what i expected with the efforts i put. practically copied some parts of the sample given to us. went to queensway with weimin, kwek, amos, chekkeng, cindy chuen hwee and jiacheng. crapped alot down dere. somehow we combined 2 0713 bands to give a S-I-A-O K-A B-O-O-M P-A-P-A B-O-Y-Z band. lol crap rite? well, its blog is coming on its way liao. dunno who's gonnna create it. ordered the class jersey and amos and chekkeng went to buy clothes for themselves. spent quite alot of money, but i'm gonna buy nxt week. walked around looking at shoes and then went to the nearby hawker centre, ABC, to eat. talked alot about supernatural stuffs and i was very intrigued by the content la. omg. need to obey so many 'laws'. went home after tt, took 139 straight home.

today op rehearsal was a disaster fer me. dunno why but i really cant control speaking too fast. tommy lee was saying too fast, too fast extremely fast, which refers to the speed of weimin, jieyang and me respectively. but somehow i scored an ee fer my question. question was pretty difficult but still i managed to stick to the point and not chat aimlessly out of point. didn't see hazel at the assembly so prob thought tt she was still sick and wouldn't come. but later she took cab down and rehearsed the op with us. and she's still gd despite her sickness. i hope that hazel will recover fast soon. REALLY NEED TO CONTROL MY SPEED NOW I'VE GOT MY VOLUME. zzz. damn i suck at presenting la.

played soccer after that and went to rest. and now i'm home, waiting fer ronson to call me so that i can go out later on. hais. another boring saturday tomorrow?

when will it ever be my turn? it feels like forever. patience,is it really a virtue?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Wednesday, October 24, 2007
10:19 PM

had a dumb school day today. had assembly and we had only 1 lesson, which was 1130-1. so we stayed in sch, chatted with the guys. crapped quite alot, talked abt some serious stuffs also. went to play soccer after that and went fer chinese lesson. all the chinese lessons are seriously boring la, so i chatted with gabriel abt some stuffs and craps also. and i must say i'm really quite surprised by the comments many people give me, about my change in being anti-social to going crazy in class. yea, i admit that the 1st few months after the PAE period, i was kinda of emo and was veh anti-social. so i realised my mistake and changed! and now i'm being labelled as a bonkers nutcase. and yea, i enjoy this way, the way i crap with the class, the way i bond with the class. i just feel the great warmth of this class. it simply just rocks.

went to ate with jiacheng, junhong and weiliang after school. went back school after that, changed into my jersey and headed to kallang with the rest of the NYKRT. took raptor and capsized twice during the triangle la. lols. practiced our strokes and went up. did exercises and i went to cut my hair. so my hair is FREAKING UGLY? so damn short la... zzz

i swear to stop it within the shortest possible time. i really need some reflecting time. hah.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, October 23, 2007
11:43 PM

had a REAAAAAAALLLLLLLLY great day today! went sch in the morn, and jieyang got on the honour roll! screamed like mad, but somehow i tink our screams aint veh impt to him lol. and we managed to see that our class had 100% promotion! and that finally put weimin's heart to rest. played soccer after that, and had my op rehearsal. practically suck at op la, and my only problem is too soft and too fast. so i need shout and talk slower. zzz, saying it seems so easy, but doing it seems very hard. stayed in school and headed over to dhoby fer the celebration dinner.
played hide-and-seek at carrefour with the guys hiding and the gals seeking. managed to find the perfect spot to hide and i practically stoned dere la. customers who saw me hide were like staring at me in a funny way. zzz. finally cheryl found me and i was the last guy to be found. woots! met the rest and went to cafe cartel to have our dinner. crapped ALOT, ate too much bread and couldn't finish our main course. decided to take fotos, went walking along meridian, orchard plaza, and THEN TURN BACK AGAIN, BY CROSSING THE ROAD. lol kinda dumb la... but somehow we need the class bonding. crapped with EVERYBODY and my bag gt 'stolen' la.. damn weimin...took 2 pics fer us. and walked back the dhoby station. met ahchek at station, talked a while and went to play arcade with the guys. got tired and went home after that. and realised that my heater is still not repaired. so i've bathed in cold water fer 3 days running.

somehow, i am really getting pissed off. by the things. things that are not going their way. and things that should not even happen at all. i'm just so lost, confused, irritated and helpless. i really don't wish things to be this way. but it really happened. if only. why?
(above are just some mindless ramblings about stuffs. its NOT what you think.)

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Monday, October 22, 2007
9:09 PM

had a pretty fun day today! haha... had lessons in the morn. had some sort of arguments with mr pun, before the chinese lecture. oh wells... slept alot during the chinese lect. was reallly soooooo boring.

wanted to play soccer after sch, but instead went to ktv-ing. ok look carefully, its ktv-ing, not kboxing. LOLs, went to the serangoon cc nearby to sing the ktv fer 3 hours, and it only cost 6.30. SO FREAKIN CHEAP LA. and summore there are modern english songs down dere, unlike kbox, which only has new chinese songs and old el songs. class was split into two, with el room and chinese room. so the el room mostly contained me, junhong, weimin, soh ee and gabriel tts all.. scream like mad la... lols. sanged many songs, linkin park etc. damn la, no mcr songs. their folder had only 1 song in it. stupid. oh wells, shall wait fer them to update. played a little soccer after that and went home. going to have op rehearsal fer the moe moderators tmr. dunno why my group is just so unlucky to have the moderators as part of our assessors fer op. damn. summore i've gt a real bad sore throat, cos too much singing liao... zzz

i wish for 2 things. first, is that everybody in my class can get promoted, including weimin. though u're the high risk person, but i really hope tt u can get promoted, along with the rest of the class.
secondly, i just hope that, i can have you. hah.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Sunday, October 21, 2007
12:17 AM

had a real bad stomachache in the morn, at ard 4 plus ytd. vomitted a little, so i couldn't go training. mom applied some medicine fer me and i felt ok after that. felt veh weak in my arms and a little dizzy. slept till 1 plus, den went to amk to meet the rest fer soccer. but i just sucked, couldn't even run much. had a little down dere, with the 'gangsters'. damn. went to hougang plaza to play pool, and went to eat. chatted ALOT down dere, with honghao talking about his australia experiencelol. I WANNA GO TO AUSTRALIA TOO! lalala... talked about having a class overseas trip after the a's but somehow i cant wait fer it la... sians.

ahhh damit, just realised tt i had never replied ur msg. still stuck in the draft folder. haiz.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, October 20, 2007
12:17 AM

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus-Your Guardian Angel
When I see your smile
tears roll down my face
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong
I have figured out
how this world turns cold
and it breaks through my soul,
and I know I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's ok [x3]

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're myyou're my,
mymy true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away
.Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away
and please tell me you'll stay, stay..

Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know I'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
(repeat)

nice song, though nt sure whats the 2 minutes of silence at the end of the song means.
Had op rehearsal today and well, tink it didn't go too bad, at least i had improved la. but just didn't know tt my voice is too soft all the time?
Went queensway today to check out class jerseys. wanted to go home at 1st, but saw junhong at the mrt, so we all just went to queensway together. cindy went with us to queensway, cos tts where she lives. lol. crapped alot on the way dere, and also played jh psp. hrm... kinda n00b at psp games la, cos never even play before la... so anyway, just crapping about big bull la..and erm, his size? lol. went about several shops in total, to find out different prices of the jerseys. Also, the adidas predator i bought at suntec is much cheaper than the predators sold at queensway la... just tt the stupid honghao bought the same shoes with me. damn! went to mac to eat, and crap somemore. talked lots of about the soccer potential of our class.

Went to hougang to play pool with amos after tt, den erm, completely forgot the time and so, i didn't get to meet ron. lol sry la ron, was bz concentrating.

I just wish to be your guardian angel, to make sure you're happy all the time. allow me the job please?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, October 16, 2007
8:36 PM

ok... now i'm really actively in posting regularly, just like how i started out with the blog:) haha...dunno why i'm so enthu in posting but cos many of my classmates started their own blogs recently or sometime ago, and i visited their blogs... but guess i'm always too lazy to tag their blogs lo...

Had the op dry run today and i tink i screwed it real bad? didn't even memorise my lines and i just didn't know what to say, so there were big gaps in my speeches. zzz, tink i really neeeeda work hard fer op, but i'm also veh tired after working hard fer the wr oso la... so i wanna resssssssssttttttt!! played soccer today, gt pretty pissed off by my ball's accuracy... i can't just believe i can miss the whole damn big ball..and let it go pass me... ah well...

and also, i can't upload the class fotos, either onto blogger or friendster? hrm anyone can help me?

the invisible me, just cant help it.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Sunday, October 14, 2007
9:35 PM

Yea, changed my blogskin, after a superduper long time... haha...

Did pw ytd before going out to meet honghao, junhong, chek keng, gabriel, weiliang, amos, yan chao and chuen hwee. bought my adidas predator 2 at just 49 bucks la! thanks to chuen hwee card, which gave 30% off all goods. and the stupid honghao went to buy the same shoes as me lar... zzz but nvm, went to eat pepper lunch at basement cos gabriel had a strong craving fer it. cant blame him though, was really nice la...after that, went straight to paradiz centre cos the rest wanted to plan LAN, den me and weiliang went to play pool till 11. walked with weiliang back to dhoby mrt and went to play arcade myself... whee! haha... took the last train to jurong east, and it arrived at tpy station at 1204 la... so i just missed my last bus home. BUT luckily i could walk home, just a 15 mins walk onli la...

sometimes i wonder, am i really not that 'wanted'?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Thursday, October 11, 2007
4:31 PM

hrm, yep! gonna get back the promo's results tmr... so all i seriously hope that, i can pass EVERYTHING, or at least let me fufill the promotion critieria. i mean, i really studied fer this promos, save fer the ridiculous hard questions, my stupidity and carelessness. its really frightening just to have the thought of me failing. i mean even if i fail econs and gp, with no h1 passes, there's still a chance i might be retained, adding in that mr pun doesn't really like me? heh. so i PRAY!. damit, please man... at least lemmme pass my chem, maths and gp. haiz... its really getting veh stressful fer my heart la... and tmr's ny's open house! yay... but then again, it all comes back to whether i'll have the mood to turn up fer the open house or just let my name appear on the front cover of the straits time. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!


yea, once broken considered sold. its just impossible to erase the wrongdoings of mine. sometimes, i really wish to turn back time, erase all the mistakes that i've done, and redo them in the best correctable way. yea, somehow, my impression made u feel that i'm just an ordinary person, who talks loudly, childishly, immaturely and nothing comes out of my mouth but rubbish, but these is not really the real me. i mean, yes, i do behave childishly, but i can really act mature if i want to, and caring. if only a second chance was given. i really need to unlock the second prison created by you.

expressing the emptiness inside me..