Total Eclipse of the Heart;

~~Friday, November 30, 2007~~

9:42 PM

went out to meet aloy and ronson together. thought ronson went for his job but he gt 'fired' instead. lols. met them at amk hub and went to MOS burger to have our soups. had 2 cups of corn soup. decided to go to orchid country club to bowl. took the mrt to yishun and shuttle to OCC. went in to the bowling area and changed to our socks. ron's socks were like .... at least 50 cm la. and i've really become veh lousy at bowling liao. and ron's still the best. gt his turkey la. i only had a strike per game, and we played 2 games. went out to the pool area to chat and ron tried to match our n73s to play the same songs. he succeeded fer the 1st 2 songs, den the rest of the songs had echos in them. took the shuttle bus back to northpoint and ate at the foodcourt there. ate my dinner, talked somemore and went to take mrt on the way. and i saw wm la, stupid asshole. lols. took to toapayoh while ron alighted at bishan. went to arcade awhile and saw yanyu and marcus too.

gonna have to collect my passport tomorrow, or else the deadline's over and i need to reapply. so troublesome la, cant they deliver to my house. heard from my mom that i need to queue for 2+ hours la... damn. and my feeling came true. i won't be going overseas, cos i need go for my grandma's death anniversary. thought ever since my father said we are going to the travel agency to go to thailand last week, i was like YES! but then this morning my mom just told my father la. den NO MORE! i really haven gone overseas in like 5 years?! man thats long la! but guess i'll ask ahma to bless me with loads of good luck for the new year.

with words i thought i never speak.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

8:50 AM

returned from the class chalet yesterday.

went to kwek's house 1st on 27. reached his house at around 1, then went to old airport to eat. came back. chatted abit about jobs and i was just listening la. feel kinda n00b cos i've never found a job and i REALLY WANNA FIND ONE! hazel's already found one la. guess nobody wanna hire a n00b like me la.

played topspin, and kwek's dad reached home. waited for weimin to reached and set off at about 330. relied on GPS while on the way and found it fascinating. reached the pretty 'high-class' aranda's country club and checked in. made an overall item check for the chalet and made sure it was in. weimin called us to the balcony and saw a guy being pulled out of the lazy river. the lifeguards performed CPR on him and it sure reminded me of the days in SJAB. kinda missed them. the com trainings, the soccer, the activities and the outings. really really miss the people. can't wait for the 40th anniversary of MSHSJAB tmr! soon, the rest came and we didn't wanna open the door. lols well, in the end, they came in and the fun started. crapped around and went down to collect the BBQ stuffs. brought them up and went to start the fire. basically, me, kwek, weimin, honghao and weiliang went down to do most of the saikang la. had a 'mini-competition' but i dunno who's the winner of the charcoal arranging method. had a difficult time starting the fire, and had lots of argument on the fone. oh wells, guess fights are really inevitable. started the fire, went out to cheers to buy drinks and other stuffs. went back to the chalet and me and kwek was just cooking without eating. most of the time, me and kwek just stood by the bbq pit la. ate lots of chicken wing at the end, most of them cooked by me. went up a little while before going out to arcade with kwek. the rest were busy with playing, chatting etc. played basketball with kwek and it was pretty lousy at 1st. displayed my arcade abilities with DAYTONA! played VS2 also la. but played basketball the most. challenged kwek and won him, considering the 1st round, i lost to him by 20+ plus! lols scored 248, and he was just 245. our total combined score was 404, i tink so. set the auto record even though the manual record was pretty low for daytona. played a little pool in between and me and kwek beat wm and ck! lols kinda miracle la. played a little time crisis 4. the rest of the people came in between and we were like the smelliest la. cos the rest bathed andwe still reeked of smoke smell la! went back to chat and played card games. played murderer and detectives and i was kinda n00b la. but gt 1 time i was the murderer and the game was pretty over cos i killed fast:)! also, another time where me, wm and kwek was the police. we showed each other our cards and laughed for 5 seconds. and 4 people died. lols. played until people anyhow said 'i'mdead' then we stopped and the rest went to sleep. took out my headfones and listened from 4 plus to 6 plus. couldn't really sleep. watched hazel, huijie, adeline and weiliang played cards and went out to walk.

felt super giddy and went to the toilet to shit. went to macs and had our breakfast. didn't feel good and felt nauseous. went back chalet 1st with honghao and cleared up the area. watched blades of glory and felt it was super duper funny la. quite pervertic la. especially when the 2 skaters collided balls-on. watched chuck and larry next and it was really a super 'gay' movie. no kidding. still didn't feel good after that and didn't go for the cycling trip. but still i couldn't sleep, so i just laid down thinking about random stuffs. they took about 3 hours i tink. and kwek, gabriel, honghao came back 1st. debated on where to eat for dinner and they decided to have it free-for-all. played bridge and big2 a while, before sohee taught me how to play mahjong! still kinda n00b but still i'm i won! lols sohee was helping me all the way la!thanks soh ee! whee! went to bk with kwek to buy our dinner, along with the snacks we bought at cheers. went back to the chalet without the gals and waited for them to return. ate our dinner and chatted alot. went to play bridge with kwek, weiliang and yanchao! the bidding was only mainly between me and kwek la. lols. gt 1 time kwek bid 4-something and i was his partner. he overtook my aces and kings and i thought oh wells, game over! but then, we still won! lols 10 sets leh. not easy to win! tink gabriel told us that weimin said patricia mok was damn chio and we were laughing like nuts la! patrcia mok chio? lols. hazel came in and keep disturbing us la. soon everybody left the room, leaving me, kwek gh and hazel. gossiped and kwek was like an asshole la. lols. gabriel came in a little while after that but we couldn't gossip continually cos honghao and weimin keep knocking on our door. pretended to sleep when they came in and they were baffled on why hazel would sleep witth 3 guys la. lols. gossiped alot on BGR. mainly it was me asking the questions and they would give their opinions. stopped a little while later on. the girls wanted to go to macs and we went out together.hazel was like sotired tt i had to push her la. parted at macs and went to pasir ris park with honghao, kwek, weimin, gabriel, yanchao, gh. talked about NS stuffs, which course to take after bmt etc. bought cup noodles and bought them back to the chalet. cooked our noodles and chatted about funny stuffs. chek and hx came in halfway and they stayed over at our chalet. lols kinda sweet la. chatted more about various stuffs, like weiliang becoming ct rep etc. soon we all became veh tired but couldn't get to sleep. so only me, kwek, chao and wm sat down to play bridge and big 2. played from 4 plus to 7 plus. imagine yourself sitting down for 3 hours plus. weimin said the next person to say ' fuck' will then allow us to sleep. so weimin went to wake up honghao and disturbed him cos honghao had the highest probability to say ' fuck'. lols and well he did! BUT STILL, i can't get to sleep la. cleared up the chalet and tried waking up the girls, but they didn't budge. played poker and lost quite abit in the beginning. but i recouped my losses and won a little of money! but guess i'm really not that kind of type for gambling lo. booked out and then took 21 home. the fucking bus was really damn slow la. the stupid driver sucks man. took until my legs and back were hurting. reached home and ate my lunch. and while i was unpacking, i just fell asleep. and slept for 17 hours straight. yep, tink its a record fer me liao. but kinda expected la, since i'm the only person in the chalet not to sleep throughout at all la. slept at 1 and woke up the next day at 630 la. my mom told me she tried calling me up for dinner but cant at all! guess i really slept like a log. guess thats all for now. thats my longest post up till now. and i'm probably can't go training tmr, cos i needa collect my passport and follow my parents to look thru travel packages. but somehow i feel i won't be stepping out of the singaporean soil.

'sorry seems to be the hardest word to say. but still, i will say 'sorry' to you. cos i think i went overboard.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, November 26, 2007~~

11:13 PM

went to replace my nebo card yesterday, and guess what? it's cracked again. but then again the reader is still able to read the card, so i don't really plan to have it replaced till necessary. damn la, the quality of the card really sucks man.

had training today. did exactly the same things fer saturday. 5 small triangles and my butt was aching like hell. did medicine ball, pullups and finally abs exercises again. went back home a little late, and missed part of 'heroes'. well, after missing the previous episode, i can't understand the storyline la. guess i need someone to tell me. tomorrow's the chalet and i've not packed a single damned thing. BUT I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO BEGIN! 0713 really rocks man!

do i even exist?

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, November 25, 2007~~

7:38 AM

went to buy some chalet stuffs on thurs with jieyang. went to the toa payoh ntuc, the smaller one? had only 2 bucks with me, and jieyang bought only 12, so we had to calculate the full amount of the stuffs we bought. in the end, put the serviettes back, cos we didn't have enough money. went to arcade later on to play. but no.4 card reader was spoilt la. so i just keep hittin the card reader and bingo, i've gt 2 free credits. chatted a little, then went home after that.

had training yesterday. wanted to go collect my passport yesterday, but it was too late after i woke up. and my nebo's card spoilt again fer the 3rd time running? what kind of low quality card are they giving out? but training yesterday was exhausting. did FIVE triangles and still had abs when we came up. totally exhausting. also learnt that there's now 4 trainings per week la. 3 water and 1 swimming. next is on monday la. and i came back i see man u losing to bolton?! damn, now man u needs to work harder to catch up with arsenal la.

and i've realised that my phone is faulty? sometimes it doesn't deliver the msg that i've sent. 1st was ronson, den now kwek. zzz. did it happen fer the msg that i've sent you to?

i'm just a sad song, with nothing to say

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, November 22, 2007~~

9:13 AM

and england's out of Euro 2008. bye england, cos you really don't deserve to qualify.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

8:54 AM

watched somemore dramas in the morning yesterday. was leaving for toapayoh yesterday when i received a call from kwek. said he was in tp with hazel and asked whether i wanted to lunch with them. agreed and then walked over to toapayoh. halfway thru, called jieyang, but he didn't answer the phone. met the two at subway and went to the downstairs food court. ate beef noodles(YUMMY!) and chatted with them after eating. tried going to the arcade but the bloody auntie didn't let us in. stupid bitch! went to the macs downstairs to chat somemore and left for training. took 31 with kwek and met audrey on the way. something really funny happened on the way. an accident happened and the bus driver was told to divert his route. he didn't really understand what happened and told the controller to rephrase in english. for more details, refer to kwek's blog. had training and then was fully exhausted la.

the higher i climb, the harder i'll fall.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, November 20, 2007~~

11:38 PM

i wanna find a short-term part time job, seriously. lols, mayb i should have joined ron's class la? anybody gt a good deal?

went to kwek's house yesterday in the afternoon. spent the morning watching POTC 1, which i had missed. been watching alot of anime(doraemon,pokemon), dramas and movies online. watched all these on crunchyroll and i'm still not yet done with many dramas yet. gonna watch dramas like return of condor heroes soon, and it's the sg version. also watchin' meteor garden, cos i missed it last time while it was on tv. lols. ok, so i reached kwek's house at around 3 and played fifa and well, half the time, the player i was controlling was behind the scorer. lols. nice 10-0 la. played halo3 after that and i gt 7 kills. kinda pathetic, but since this is my 1st time, it's a boost.lols. watched kwek's brother thrash the rest even though it's 1 vs 3. played
burnout on kwek's psp and well, it wasn't too bad either, setted alot of record. also played NFS on the xbox and i was really kinda n00b? and fer the best game, it has to be topspin. really nice tennis game. though half the time, kwek was yelling at me. chills man la, i'm only playing it fer the 1st time its already not bad, considering i helped u cover up fer alot of time. won the 1st game and jiacheng took over me. though they tio owned, but jc and kwek still won la!
took bus with weimin after tt to kallang and i transferred to 21, and home! and when i reached home, my parents were watching tv la. SO BLOODY HELL I MISSED MY ' HEROES'! DAMIT! anybody know where to download it?

watched somemore dramas in the morning today, and went out to meet ron in the afternoon. wanted to play at yck, but the tables were full by the time he came. walked to amk, and played at snookerium. played about an hour plus, den left fer bishan to have our dinner. chatted alot, well some crap inside too. actually lots of crap. went to the library and erm, he just ps me la. lols. went to tp arcade fer a while and then went home. fell asleep fer a while den here i'm blogging again.

for one more day.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, November 15, 2007~~

9:13 PM

today's somehow the last day of school fer me. planning to skip econs tmr, cos erm, its kinda boring and it's nt gonna be productive.

had physics lecture only yesterday. started at 9 and this time i reached at the 'correct' time. actually iwas late. lols. i took the effing wrong bus la. saw the 1st two digits of the bus which was '15' den i thought it was 153. and AFTER i boarded the bus, i realised it was 151? well, it was after the bus didn't turn into toa payoh did i know. i was like OOPS la. took 151 to outside SA village dere and walked over to serangoon rd to take 133. wasn't that late either. went out to Macs with the guys and chatted alot. well, had some err guys' talk with amos, weiliang and jieyang la. lols. wont reveal the contents. went back school with yanchao and weiliang to wait fer my kayak training. had the training and then, went back home. had a very erm 'strange' phone call, cos the person didn't say who she was, but i know she was from NY cos she was telling me about some OGL stuffs. anyway my OG is 35(no 25 la, zzz is plus 10 la.) and one of my ogl partner is charmander la. lols. at least it aint some stranger. `

went school at 7 plus nearing to 8, met khairul on the way and had a good chat with him. hopefully he's able to join me la. had maths and chem lect, followed by a short gp session by our new teacher, Ms Shahida. not sure if she's good, but we'll wait and see. went out with the guys again to the nearby coffeeshop. chatted quite abit about various stuffs. went to TP arcade with jieyang and weiliang after that. didn't have money fer pool later on, cos i used it to top up my card. played various games, especially the drum mania, but i just sucked at it. went separate ways after that and went home.

I've been waiting all my life to cross this line; this is true.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Tuesday, November 13, 2007~~

7:20 PM

went back to school today since i felt ok. went to school at 8, but our gp lesson was postponed la. so it was like... went to eat with gabriel, chekkeng, weiliang, huijie, yanchao. junhong then joined us later on. went back school to have our maths lect. played soccer after the maths lect, which was utterly boring. thought our team would lose cos it wasn't really tt good, but we still won! lols. chatted abit about chalet stuffs before going to lt4 fer our econs lect. and it was like WTH boring? lols i didn't bother listening to the lecturer la. chatted with gab and jy. went out with some of the class, to watch 'The Game Plan'. went with annis, adeline, huijie hazel, soh ee to PS to buy the 1355 tics, but they were all sold out. went to cathay next and there were tics available fer the 1425 show, so we bought them. walked around before going up. hrm, the show is seriously not bad, quite good actually. it's comical, and yet touching(nah, i didn't cry). really nice show, you guys should go watch it if you haven't. went home after that and i went separate ways from the rest as i was taking the red line, and they were taking the purple line. and my nose's still blocked la, along with my ears. damn.

Thnks Fr Th Mmrs.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, November 12, 2007~~

7:57 PM

skipped school today, was still quite sick. woke up at 7 with a terrible headache, so i just didn't wanna get up. when i woke up again, it was already 12 plus. ate my lunch, had panadol and slept again till 4. woke up and felt much better. and i'm already feeling kinda drowsy already. zzz.

it was only a test of self-confidence, and i've failed miserably.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, November 11, 2007~~

3:48 PM

HAPPY BITHDAY TO SEOW WEI LIANG! It's his birthday today.

Went out with the class to celebrate weiliang's birthday. was still feeling very drowsy from the fever i had. temp was up to 37.9 in the morn. but still it's weiliang bdae, so i just went. met jieyang and went to NY to meet the rest. while on the way to buy sportade drink and panadols, i saw erm, hazel? lols at 1st, i couldn't really recognize her, but then i saw her watch and thought it was kinda familiar. and as she walked nearer, oh wows, her hair's gt a new hairstyle. wont elaborate much on it, but i tink it's really unique la. lols. went to wl block after that and lighted up the cake. waited fer wl to come down and surpised him. didn't ate the cake cos i didn't have appetite. hands were still trembling a little and veh 'soft'. watched the class played soccer a little, and i went home to sleep. was really feeling quite drowsy liao, so i skipped training. sorry guys. felt better after the sleep and went to out to meet wl gh jy fer a while at arcade den jy passed me the shoebag. played a little and went home to sleep somemore.

and school's starting tomorrow, and i'm still feeling a little weak la. nose still runny a little and veh blocked. cant even breathe properly. zzz. really dun feel like waking up so early tmr la. so sians. hais.

no more coincidences, just purposes.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Friday, November 09, 2007~~

11:05 PM

alrite, back to blogging again. went to buy weiliang's present with jieyang. met him at toa payoh central. didn't feel like buying so soon, so we went to the arcade. played a while of daytona, photo and erm, jy went out fer a while, but was rejected, so he came back. lols. he went out again with high hopes. lols, my bad fer giving him the high hopes. but it all came crashing down and i met him to buy weiliang at kiddy palace. since weiliang likes to eat, we bought alot of stuffs fer him, mainly food. bought the food at ntuc, and went to more than words to get our box. bought a soft toy and filled the box. went back to arcade went played awhile. went to play vs 2 and beat jy! woots! talked about some 'serious stuffs' on the way back. went separate ways and i took the bus back.

and we're going school to celebrate weiliang's bdae tmr, though the actual one is on sunday. hopefully most of the people can go, cos weiliang really did lots fer the class bdae. so its now time to celebrate his. and hopefully he can enjoy his bdae.

please don't walk away. please tell me you'll stay.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Wednesday, November 07, 2007~~

11:55 PM

boy, am i super shagged now. just returned from marina bay after having a buffet dinner with my kayak team.

had school yesterady fer just 2 hours. pretty dumb eh? had lessons till 10, den went to play captain's ball with the class. at 1st we were leading like 8-0 cos of jr la. lols. was pretty tired, with the class becoming pretty bad-tempered at points of the game. went to amk after tt to meet aloy and ron. decided to play pool, and later, fats and john joined us. and still after tt, jh joined us. play pool fer abt 4 hours, with us taking turns. played and crapped alot, cos i haven seen fats in quite a long time. after that went with aloy to buy jay chou new album, jay chou on the run. i still like wo bu pei the best now! went home after tt to listen to the songs.

had sch today oso fer just 2 hours. had physics and econs. gt scolded by mr pun, and he said tt he wanna take back the ogl form. zzz. didn't really cared about him. class went out to j8 fer class lunch. yoshinoya, where i 1st TALKED to erm somebody? i've my manners la... lols. discussed about various chalet items, before i went back to school to prepare fer my kayak training. today's training was pretty funny la. cher used alot of outside examples to describe the strokes we're supposed to do. we even used dragonboat paddles to help us la. lols. went back and bathed and went to marina bay with the team to celebrate joey's bdae. really ate alot la. lols. went back and i'm here blogging again.

somehow i grew, but it wasn't enough.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Monday, November 05, 2007~~

11:24 PM

had a great, great fun time today!! had a fantastic class outing, though it was marred a little.

met jy early in the morn at tp. took mrt down to dhoby, transferred to nel, and met amos, hazel they all etc on the train. met honghao at harbourfront. went to meet the rest, who were at the foodcourt in vivo. weimin later came and realised tt he REALLY DIDN'T BRING THE CLASS SHIRT FER ME, JIEYANG AND HAZEL. zzz, so i just wore my house tee fer the rest of the outing. took the monorail to sentosa. 2nd time on it, 1st was with 0715. went to beach station and debated whether to go to palawan or siloso beach. stayed at siloso at the end and went to play volleyball. played fer quite a while and the whole class came to a standstill. argued over what to played and how to divide everybody. went to another corner to play volleyball. after a pretty long period, everything gt settled and we went to play volleyball. got bored quickly, and decided to play dodgeball. won the 1st game and gt thrashed in the 2nd game. and as usual, weimin gt pissed off again, hais, another example of his bad-temperedness again. went to swim and to tell seriously, all we did in the sea was just pulling each others pants down. the worse was weimin, whose pants and underwear was pulled all the way to his knees, but we didn't see anything cos it was all underwater. also, the fat pig honghao, showed his pubic hair la... omg! rode on chekkeng's back and then went up to bathe. went back to the pavillion and played abit of volleyball passing. fell down halfway, and my knees gt hurt. zzz. took a number of pics and headed to vivo. class planned to have their dinner at crystal jade la. pretty dumb. changed idea and we went separate ways to order food, den proceed to the sky terrace to have our dinner. had to ljs set 1 meal and was quite full. chatted with junhong, amos, yanchao and weiliang about various things. gossiped here and dere and crapped alot too! ahh.. went to the bus stop and oh wells... dun tell anybody hor. my bus came 1st and took it all the way back and i'm sure exhausted la. damit. and i'm now writing some super crap stuff on my ogl form. still need to let mr. pun sign la. stupid.

i need to stick to my promise, given the circumstances. 'Stop within the shortest possible time'. i'll bear this in my mind. afterall, home is still best.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Sunday, November 04, 2007~~

9:36 PM

was pretty bored today. didn't go out, so i just went to play some pokemon ROM games la. couldn't find anything else to do, so i just went on to play pokemon! lols, childish eh? cant help it la. and also, just realised my father cancelled the starhub again la. he said cos of my sister's poor results. and my sister's result isn't that poor la. her science gt 81 and maths gt 86. but my parents ain't happy tt she gt 90. kinda ridiculous eh? if i gt such marks fer my a's and my parents aint happy, i'll prob make the newspaper headlines by jumping off the tallest building. ahh well, no more soccer again. sians.

going out with my class to sentosa! hopefully we can all play like siao! whee!

It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Saturday, November 03, 2007~~

10:04 PM

lol slightly after 1st half-score. stupid tv.

and yea, good game. score's doubled.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

8:12 PM

ahh... guess the feeling of holidays rocks man! went out yesterday to buy a new memory card fer my fone. bought my 2gb mem card at 40 bucks. didn't bother to go around comparing prices, so i just went into 1 shop, den bought the card. wanted to buy the game 'midtown madness2' but somehow, was broke. so i didn't buy it. but nvm, at least i know which shop to go next time i come back to simlim. went to a few cd shops to buy jay chou's new album, but couldn't find it. most prob sold out oredi or smth. also wanted to change my sim card to a 3G sim card, but found it tt it will cost 18 bucks, so i just forget about it. didn't wanna lost my contacts and some stuffs inside the sim card either.

today's trg was cancelled, so i slacked at home. went to arcade in the afternoon, but didn't play much. watched a guy from .x. play. wonder how he had managed to go thru all the turns so easily la. compared to him, i am just a n00b shit. damn! i wanna train my advance. zzz. cant watch arsenal vs man u later on either. damn. feeling bored.

though my skies are turning grey.

expressing the emptiness inside me..

~~Thursday, November 01, 2007~~

9:50 PM

and so, PW IS NOW FINISHED! WHEE!

woke up at 530 today. damn early la. but kinda used to it. could rmb waking up at 515 fer sec1,2,3 la. just to accompany. but sec 4 was different, woke up at 6 instead. lols. anyway, walked to tp and took 105. reached sch at abt 705. met with our pw grp mates and drank honey(just a little). went to 546, our venue fer our pw. saw chenyantong and couldn't stop laughing. weimin gt damn high before our op, making us relaxed. stumbled abit during my presentation but generally i did ok. spoke fer abt 3 mins fer the q&a la, almost like presenting my questions liddat. took a pic with NY069. somehow,i guess pw really made me very close with my groupmates, namely weimin, jieyang and the only girl, hazel. we slacked together, gossiped together and work hard together. but all these can still continue with the class bonding. went to eat at central with the class. chatted alot, played psp and then went home. was quite exhausted so i slept a little, before going to arcade to play a while.

and i'll know i'll be okay.

expressing the emptiness inside me..